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Country: United States
State: Texas
Birthday: 7/4/1977
Gender: Female


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Member Since: 11/3/2003

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Thursday, September 09, 2004

this brought a moment of solace to my life today.  maybe it will to others. i long for the reality of this poem and even the chaos which it expresses goes on at other times. but in the midsts of the not having, i am still amazingly thankful and content for just the idea of a day of grace.

Poem: "Ordinary Life," by Barbara Crooker, from Ordinary Life (By Line Press).

Ordinary Life

This was a day when nothing happened,
the children went off to school
without a murmur, remembering
their books, lunches, gloves.
All morning, the baby and I built block stacks
in the squares of light on the floor.
And lunch blended into naptime,
I cleaned out kitchen cupboards,
one of those jobs that never gets done,
then sat in a circle of sunlight
and drank ginger tea,
watched the birds at the feeder
jostle over lunch's little scraps.
A pheasant strutted from the hedgerow,
preened and flashed his jeweled head.
Now a chicken roasts in the pan,
and the children return,
the murmur of their stories dappling the air.
I peel carrots and potatoes without paring my thumb.
We listen together for your wheels on the drive.
Grace before bread.
And at the table, actual conversation,
no bickering or pokes.
And then, the drift into homework.
The baby goes to his cars, drives them
along the sofa's ridges and hills.
Leaning by the counter, we steal a long slow kiss,
tasting of coffee and cream.
The chicken's diminished to skin & skeleton,
the moon to a comma, a sliver of white,
but this has been a day of grace
in the dead of winter,
the hard cold knuckle of the year,
a day that unwrapped itself
like an unexpected gift,
and the stars turn on,
order themselves
into the winter night.


Monday, May 24, 2004

all is well. and a return to the joy of being a singleton prevails. the past week has been refreshing in the sense that i have a good life and busy b/c i've had a lot of a life lately. it comes and goes like that. first social encounter with former dater went much better than even hoped for. and i am thankful that at least a social friendship can happen. and the eyes were open to see that he might not have been all that great to begin with. i was just blinded by the excitement of newness. and i had fun just being myself. no alcohol induced confidence needed. just me rocking out to the bands that i love. and realizing how random the network of my friends is. that i ended up at a house party with David Garza playing in the living room. and the truck rocked my weekend. i'll miss those guys.


Wednesday, May 12, 2004

and it has happened. i've been cast aside. three weeks this time. i guess that's an improvement. my faith is weak. my hope is scared. my heart hurts. and i feel stupid for crying over something like this. but i'm so tired of being used. and i'm tired of being misled.
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Wednesday, April 28, 2004

at any moment i'm expecting to be ignored. to be cast aside. for the wake up to happen. the wtf moment in which all this mush and fascination will end. and i'll be sad and left wondering what's wrong with me.
but in the mean time, i'll let doors be opened for me and let lips press against mine and receive compliments and just see what happens i guess.
but wow, i so want to run before i really like this guy.


Friday, March 26, 2004

"lovely day" appropriate song to set my mind right. now to find strength in me to believe that. this week has had me running straight into wall of melancholy.
so glad it's friday. am eternally grateful for fridays
hair cut will take place in a few hours. will be glad for change and nice head massage during washing



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